Shut up!

What do I do to ignore them behind me?
Do I follow my instincts blindly?
Do I hide my pride away from these bad dreams?
And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening?
Do I let it go and try to stand it?
Or do I try to catch ’em red handed?
Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness?
Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness?
’Cause I cant hold when I’m stretched so thin
I make the right moves but I’m lost within
I put on my daily facade but then
I just end up getting hurt again, by myself

Myself!
I ask why, but in my mind
I find I can’t rely on myself
Myself!
I ask why, but in my mind
I find I can’t rely on myself

I can’t look around
It’s too much to take in
I can’t hold back
When I’m stretched so thin
I can’t slow down
Watching everything spin
I can’t look back
And see it tumbling in

If I turn my back I’m defenseless
And to go blindly seems senseless
If I hide my pride and let it all go on then they’ll
Take from me till everything is gone
If I let them go I’ll be outdone
But if I try to catch ’em I’ll be outrun
If I’m killed by the questions like a cancer
Then I’ll be buried in the silence of the answer

By myself
Myself!
I ask why, but in my mind I find
I can’t rely on myself
Myself!
I ask why, but in my mind I find
I can’t rely on myself

I can’t look around
It’s too much to take in
I can’t hold back
When I’m stretched so thin
I can’t slow down
Watching everything spin
I can’t look back
And see it tumbling in

Don’t you, don’t you, don’t you, don’t you
Don’t you, don’t you, don’t you, don’t you...

Know!
I can’t tell you how to make it go!
No matter what I do, how hard I try!
I can’t seem to convince myself why!
I’m stuck on the outside
Don’t you, don’t you, don’t you, don’t you, don’t you

Don’t you know!
I can’t tell you how to make it go!
No matter what I do, how hard I try!
I can’t seem to convince myself why!
I’m stuck on the outside